Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Not Quite Complete

Early dawn in the Middle East

Even a cursory review of recent posts to this blog reveals an author who is searching for something, a deeper meaning of those things around him, a balance within his life, centeredness.   In some respects, that is the purpose of this blog, to document my journey forward.  Over the past month or so I have sat at a crossroads in my life and have sought direction into the future.  I’ve looked inwardly as a Zen Buddhist, and remarkably have found God sitting within my silence.   I’ve re-examined those things that have been important to me, and have made peace with my faults.  It’s been an unspeakable journey of depth and grace, yet it is still not complete.

Things that I know:

God abides in each of us, speaking softly in his own time.  We just have to lessen the background noise so that we can hear him.

Deeds are far greater than words.  I hear too many people just passing gas for affect.  Mean what you say, and do it.

Reduce the noise and enjoy life as it's happening right now.  Our constant dialogue with ourselves prevents us from living in the present moment, a concept that  both the Buddha and Jesus preached.

Impatience is simply an extension of our egos. It's a manifestation of us wanting something, and wanting it right now.  Calm down, breath, and examine the emotion objectively.  It soon goes away.

We need very little;  food, air, sunshine, water, and a place to sleep.  Everything else is a bonus.  Delineate needs from wants. The difference is staggering.

Be critical of yourself, but also be gentle and forgiving.

Don’t be critical of others, but still be gentle and forgiving.

A 16-inch Brown Trout rising out of misty, serene waters to take a perfectly placed dry fly is God yelling at us to smile.

1 comment:

Ed Epp said...

Eric - don't know if you remember me from last year in Haiti. In some ways your journey is similar to mine. I too have worked and lived in areas of conflict. I too have struggled with the concepts around service and how it has enriched me much more than the "service" I have provided to others. In other ways your journey is so different than mine. I have always worked from a belief that God would never ask me to commit any form of violence. This belief has compelled me to work for peace. You have worked with the military and very different assumptions, but yet you too have seen your work as one of creating peace. Today we both sit and ponder what God is showing us, has shown us, and will show us. I think that there may be more similarities in our journeys than I would have once believed.

By the way, Sabastian from your blog(I believe we met the same Sabastian in Haiti) is doing well. I heard a report about him and he is living with a family, still in a tent, but healthy and full of life.

I follow your journey with great interest.